Making Life Changing Decisions

Last night I was faced with one of the hardest decisions I've ever had to make. I have yet to comply with what I know is the only way to help without putting my self in danger.

Here's what's been going on (try to follow me here)...

I know of someone who has a little girl with a girl that is neglecting her. This girl is on drugs and is constantly fighting with the dad. he comes and goes not because of himself but because this girl is so whacked that the police are there way more than a normal person and he needs to keep himself out of what could be a bad situation. The girl has been cheating on the guy and there was a confrontation between the three of them when the guy came home one night to find her in bed with him. There is MUCH more involved but the bottom line is that the little girl saw the whole thing. For the last 4-5 days the little girl was told by her mom that they were going to the beach so she's been in her swimsuit for that length of time. At one point there was bleach found on the little girl's arms and the mom just keeps coming and going and no one ever knows when she's going to come back. This is just a bit of what's going on so you can imagine what the house actually looks like.

They live with the girl's mom and sister and there are other family members that know what is going on and no one is doing anything. There was a plan to get the girl taken into rehab or jail so that she would have to clean herself up but we all know that if she doesn't WANT to do it, no one can force her and the same thing will just continue when she comes home. Now the person that was going to have it set up is scared of any repercussions that might come out of it because she's so close to the situation. That was determined last night.

We all want something good to some out of the situation but the reality is that there won't be one unless drastic measures are taken. Child neglect is a form of child abuse and as a mother I cannot stand by and wait any longer. In all honesty I was hoping that I wouldn't have to get involved at all, even anonymously but it IS my duty as a mom to know when it's time to save the little girl. I am having a REALLY hard time with this and have been throwing up on and off all day out of anxiety. Even if these were strangers I would be reacting the same way. I know I'm doing the right thing by calling someone to come in but I just can't help but feel SO awful for such an awful situation. I just pray taht something comes out of this and the parents get their crap together.

Reflections...

Last week four police officers were killed in Oakland. It's a terrible tragedy and thousands of people are saddened by it and are coming out to fill at least one stadium for their memorial service today. I really feel for their families, especially their kids. Although we all have to go someday, going this way is pretty awful.

It got me thinking about my friend that was killed almost a year ago. I became really sad while I was thinking and couldn't believe that he's been gone for a year already. My eyes wandered out the window and all of a sudden I saw two butterflies flitting around and landed on the ground. This is slightly unusual and since the weather has warmed up I haven't seen any here yet. I went outside and looked up in the trees and saw at least ten of them weaving in and out of the branches. I got a warm feeling that I can't really describe as I was watching the butterflies and realized that it could very well have been a sign from him letting me know he was okay. We miss him a lot and DH hasn't been the same since he left us.

Living Up To Its Name...

Well, I created this blog because there are SO many times that I sit down to write and can't think of ONE good thing to put down that I end up needing a place to just ramble and say nothing at all. Okay, most of what I put down is nonsense anyway but here I'll most likely be saying anything that comes to mind at all.

Today has been pretty boring...I'm just sitting here trying to figure out what to do with my time. Do you ever have so many things that you want to do you don't even know where to start? That's me right now. I have one of THE longest lists of things that I want to get done but end up getting so stuck that I just end up in a daze and get nothing done at all. I guess having a schedule or something would help with that but having kids makes it almost impossible to keep to one. *sigh* I just feel like I'm wasting so much time, which I'm sure I am to some extent.

Face-lift

Well, we finally got a new do over here and I'm really excited about it. I have really found that I like making these templates and have been redoing all of my blogs. I'm not at all artistic though which makes it take forever for me to finish one. I can't ever decide on what to do.

I can't believe how long it's been since I started this blog and failed to post anything on it. Hopefully I'll have lots of fun things to put on here other than my daily "blah, blah". It's funny how when you start blogging it ends up becoming something of a diary. Your daily events, or lack of, rants, raves, or whatever else just ends up coming out. Well, that about does it for me tonight. I'll be back soon!